I received my last YarnBox Luxe in September and it contained the beautiful thick and thin handspun yarn from Knit Collage. How perfect, right? I am currently obsessed with spinning and my last box of surprise luxury yarn is handspun! It made me smile in a way that only yarn can. Oh, squishy goodness, how I love you.
With this beautiful new yarn and some size US 15 needles, I got right to work making something. It was a great pleasure that I was designing what I was making, too. It is an ambition of mine to get serious about designing knitwear. I have all of these ideas bouncing around in my head and I know I can do it. (Whether anyone likes it is another issue, but I'm going to tackle one thing at a time here.) I started dabbling with design before my first son was born- but then loud, obnoxious screeching breaks were put on that I'm just starting to realize were a little (not completely, let's be fair) self-imposed. Granted, two toddlers do not leave a lot of time for anybody or anything else, but there are plenty of people with limited time that chase dreams. And part of this whole thing is because I love fiber and part of this is because I want to build a little something for myself that is not necessarily connected with me being a mother. I love being a stay-at-home mom, I feel lucky in many respects, but it is not a career. Eventually my children will grow up and start their own journeys away from the nest following their own interests. I want to start building something now that will sustain me and give me satisfaction and purpose beyond rearing children.
And I love fiber.
Lately, I've kicked my little butt in gear and I'm excited to start sharing with you some of what I've been doing. Like really excited. I have a lot that I'm working on to fulfill this ambition of mine and I'm loving it. I have to remind myself it is a slow simmer, and that's okay, as long as I'm still moving forward.
This was a nice confidence building project. It knit up quickly, it was funky, chunky and fun. I was able to write up the pattern, take some pictures (with the help of my littlest...perhaps I should invest in a tripod. I could put my tiny helper in charge of some other aspect of my project, one that is a little less dropable) and put together a completely finished product that I was proud of without feeling overwhelmed, drained, or defeated. All good things. I especially like the name of the cowl: "Through Thick and Thin." Yes, it's supposed to be punny, but it is also a good description of my relationship with fiber crafts. They get me through a lot. And now that this is done, I'm looking at my swatches and beginnings of other designs and a little voice in my head is saying; "You can do this," with a little more confidence. I've begun submitting ideas, too. I know there is a lot of rejection ahead of me. I can handle rejection, I just can't handle defeat. And for the past couple of years, I have been defeating myself just a bit. That's no example to set for my children.
So, tally-ho! Off I go. Chasing a dream, trying to build something and excited to see where it goes.